The little boy favored ducks,
he thought them very nifty;
in motley flock they come each spring
now the little boy is fifty.
With thanks to my gardener son, Dennis,
for the photo op.
For him, a proper yard will always wear a duck.
The little boy favored ducks,
he thought them very nifty;
in motley flock they come each spring
now the little boy is fifty.
With thanks to my gardener son, Dennis,
for the photo op.
For him, a proper yard will always wear a duck.
Beehold the bee
in ecstasy,
beesotten with spring
debauchering.
This little 747 was so full he kept sliding sideways, which did not seem to affect his euphoria. That was one blissfully loop-legged bee.
Saluting Earth Day!
I had my annual Medicare Wellness appointment the other day and therefore I have need to vent. Feel free to change the channel.
Understand that I think it is very good to keep old people on doctors’ radar. As our cogs keep slipping, we might not know it.
However, it should be old people who design the intake. Consider, dear reader: Do you have any problem with your memory? Answer yes or no. Yes OR no? Pfui! That is clearly yes AND no! At the very least, an essay question.
Where did I sit in fifth grade? No problem. The lyrics to “Up and Down the Monon”? I’m all over that. The how-to directions I just read? Poof! Gone!
I have to look up the spellings of words I never had to look up in years past, and there are a couple words I can never remember how to spell no matter how often I look them up. I’d tell you what they are but I can’t remember them. Our party-line phone number in 1949? I can rattle that right off.
The word I want mid-sentence? Nowhere to be found. Latin names for plants? It is to laugh. The sixth-graders I taught in 1965? I just jotted down the names of 32 of them by way of memory test. The numerous times I’ve made an idiot of myself? Down to the last detail. What day is it? Ummm…
So how did I answer? NO. Because I know that up and down that “rootin’, tootin’ Monon…everything is fine.”
Thus ends my vent. For now.
I’m old.
I sag.
I forget.
I miss thinking
that I know what’s going on.
But I have a lilac in my house.
I fear the lies
and the liars,
the bullets,
dependence.
But I have a lilac in my house.
I feel the weight of memories,
of words
spoken and unspoken,
of being human,
of mail from funeral homes.
But I have a lilac in my house.
I know the distance
between my grandchildren and me,
the chasm of time,
each day
wider,
deeper.
But I have a lilac in my house.
I remember other lilacs
clutched with bowed tulips,
wrapped in wet kleenex and foil,
bounced with us on the school bus,
their tattered remnants
proudly presented to Sister
for the May altar.
Imperfect days, to be sure,
but days with a lifetime ahead,
not behind.
Much to treasure,
much to trash
from those days.
Still the lilac blooms in my house.
If I go very close,
and breathe it in,
I change somehow.
So brief that air
yet so forever.
The garden flaunts its mysteries,
making botanists beg
how comes preposterous hybrid,
part jonquil and part egg?
If you know me much at all, dear reader, you will understand the difficulties with which I forbore from writing a second stanza about how the yolk’s on me.
A dog and her stick,
most mysterious meld
of inertia and focus
I ever beheld.
With nary a muscle,
a leg or a wing,
the stick’s going nowhere —
it’s just a dead thing.
The dog, disbelieving
in inanimation,
is taking no chance
on stick ambulation.
Convinced that the stick
is just playing possum,
the dog bides her time
with readiness awesome.
This stand-off, I’m sure,
has lesson for me,
and I begin to suspect
what that lesson could be:
today isn’t yesterday.
You just never know
when the stick will escape
and you’ll look like a schmo.
When I tell you, dear reader, the trains were in our back yards, it’s not hyperbole. You can see the railroad track behind me. Those trains were roaring behemoths, shaking the house, kicking up cinders while the open coal cars, toting fuel for homes and industry, dribbled black along the way.
So when I say spring cleaning with reverence and a slight shudder, you have some small idea why. All the curtains came down and went into the washing machine with the wringer on top. The lace curtains, still wet, were mounted carefully on wood frames with a million tiny sharp nails around the edges that held the curtains taut while they dried. OMG. Of course Grandma ironed them anyway before they were tenderly re-hung.
That was the same grandma balanced up on a ladder with a fistful of some goo, wiping the wallpaper in careful strokes, slowly revealing the color under the grit. Repeatedly turning the goo, wiping, wiping, down the ladder, move the ladder, back up, wipe, wipe. OMG.
Rugs rolled up and lugged outside to be thrashed? Check. Hardwood floors, woodwork, windowsills scrubbed? Storm windows taken down, inner windows washed, screens hosed down and installed? Check, check. Dump the dirty water in the alley, fill the bucket again? OMG.
Then dinner to be made with no microwave, no dishwasher, no counter space, and a freezer the size of a shoebox? OMG.
And so was Easter dinner served in pristine newness. Old walls, old curtains renewed. Fumes of Fels Naphtha gave way to the perfume of ham and lemon meringue pie.
How close our metaphorical trains. How timeless the human need for renewal. I wish it for you, dear reader, and for us all in this season of many traditions.
BACKPACK
The poet trudges,
burdened, bent,
back and forth,
impercipient.
With words that are useless,
that have only weight,
he paces a sameness
in blindered grim gait.
Metaphors, similes,
a crisp interjection,
mere clamorous tonnage,
trash and abjection.
The longer he carries
that lexicon load
the more likely he is
to slowly implode.
The vulture, despair,
the scavenging bird,
starts to descend,
but then comes the word!
The exact, the precise,
in meaning and sound,
arises from somewhere
in mind’s underground!
The foot-weary poet
with jubilant pen
turns face to the wind
to do it again.
And so do we begin National Poetry Month, dear reader, my annual head-scratching of what makes a poem or a poet.
I do not believe that rhyme makes a poem. I try to work in rhyme for two reasons: 1) it narrows my choice of words, a good discipline for a yackety daughter of Eire, and 2) it gives me the giggles, a good tonic.
But poetry does not depend on rhyme; it depends on something else. I can’t define it.
As happens so often, Bill, our intrepid photographer, has captured an image with wonderful layers of meaning. Thanks again, Bill!
For me it isn’t every day
I get to see a duck ballet;
other ducks flock by the millioms
to watch the duck named Esther Williams.
What’s that, young reader? You never heard of her?
Look her up!
(It sounds political but it’s not.)
I needn’t say that the music was “Swan Lake.” Of course it was.